New Years Eve.

Now is the time of reflection.... or looking forward.

or what...

2010 was a terrible year for me, although, in the terribleness there were bright spots.

I am cured at the moment, that's good. There is a lingering sense of panic left over from the panic they instill in you so you do what they want, that is not so good. There is also the knowledge that dying isn't something that happens just to other people, there is no getting out of it, and you might not have a bunch of time left. This year our local lost 2 people quite suddenly, and it sort of brings it home to then have a serious illness. Granted, although no one talks of it, you have a few years if you decide to do nothing at all, with breast cancer. On a gross, and slightly lighter note, there was this woman in Japan, who had my same type of tumor, and she ignored it, it got so large it ulcerated her skin, and she went to the Emergency Room, and that was the first time she had gone to the doctor for it. Mastectomy, radiation, and I think chemo, and she is fine, it wasn't even in her lymph nodes. They committed her for, not paying attention... or something.

So, I still have some residual panic, and fear of mortality, plus, I take hormone blockers, that make me achy and moody, I can make it not so terrible if I take magnesium, calcium, D3, and the B vitamins, if I forget, I get weepy and depressed, so, I'll talk to the Dr. about that in January. I'll also talk to her about the free massage thing... I don't think there is a convenient massage school, I also think I should go to the cancer support group, but I am so much better off, do they want to hear my whining?

Aside from all of that bullshit. Life is not so terrible, I have a few resolutions. diet and work out...what else... keep the apartment not disgusting... oh, and make sauerkraut, and cheese. The sauerkraut... well, I have to pay attention to it, so I have to try again... its not time consuming, it just takes time everyday, and I haven't been able to remember that, so I have to try again. the cheese... well, it takes hours and hours on the day, then after you apply wax, you wait, for at least three months. I think I will make one batch of cheese a month, next up is parmesian since that has to age for at least 12 months, then maybe little cheeses for gifts?

I know three pregnant people, plus two who didn't get presents last year because I was preoccupied, so that's 5 knitted things, plus ongoing socks, and now mittens, and some sweaters. I'll try to be better about posting photos. Because I have to knit so much, I have been uploading audiobooks to my computer, like a mad woman. Its my one huge grip that this is not easier to load into itunes, you should be able to click on something in a dialog box, and boom its an audio book. I also download my subscription for The Economist in audio, then I can listen while I do other things, and I joined audible.com. So, there will be lots to listen to, while I knit, and clean the apartment.

My most recent book listened to, was Lies My Teacher Told Me, some stuff was a shock, some stuff not so much, it made me really angry at Woodrow Wilson - now I lament where we could be now with race relations if we had not elected that racist bastard, and even wonder if Latin America would be better off and more democratic had he not been in office. and I keep thinking about A. T. Morgan who was elected to the state senate in Mississippi in 1870, then married a black woman from New York, and was re-elected. which makes me think of another book I uploaded, but haven't listened to yet... Passing Strange, about a man who was a fairly successful geologist or something, and met a woman and fell in love with her, but she was black and he was white and there were laws... so, he lied, and made up a false identity as a black pullman porter so they could get married. She found out from a letter he wrote from his deathbed on an expedition. Maybe its working for the Intiman, and we are all about breaking down the racial barriers, but... don't worry I also have two viking novels of plunder and mayhem, Crime and Punishment, Scarlet Letter, and a bunch of books by Mary Roach (Bonk, and Stiff) so, maybe I will need some light hearted stuff... hmmmm

Oh... so, what I have learned about uploading books onto my iTunes.
Insert cd.
Let it register.
Right click on cd, pick get info.
Make sure you like the artist, composer info, (I like to make sure this is the same for each disc) check the disc name, and add the disc number, add a 0 in front of a single digit, 01, select part of a compilation, and in genre type pick audiobook.
Next, press control A to select all tracks, and under the advanced tab, select join cd tracks.
Now Import cd.
After all the discs are imported, find them in you music library, you might think - I checked audiobook, why isn't it in audiobook, the answer is because Apple is stupid. I find it easiest to find the discs under artist, in the album picture view, it will be an generic picture with John Smith 12 albums, 12 songs (because we joined the tracks) right click on the icon, pick get info, under options, change media type to audiobook, check compilation, remember my place and skip when shuffling. When you hit ok, it will get whisked away to your audiobook file. If you forget to tell itunes its an audiobook before you import it, its too late... you can NEVER fix it. so...

On the next book I import, I will see if you can name the compilation before you send it to audiobooks. Making it a compilation seems to make all the albums group together in the audiobook file rather than be individual albums, which you would need to select each to add to your ipod. So, if you have a small ipod, and you want to import a large book, not checking compilation would make it possible to put only a few discs on your device at a time.

ok...
Im done... Happy New Year.
Gromek.